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In March 2017 I was in a bad place. I was losing my house, my relationships were struggling and my business was failing. One night I found myself home alone, drunk, and depressed –and for the first time in my life suicidal. After a suicide attempt and a hospital detox I went to Elgin Mental Health Center where I was prescribed medications for depression. I was there for 2 weeks but I was feeling much better and for the first time in a long time I began to think about my future and where I would go from there.
I was released from the hospital and immediately moved into Lazarus House, a homeless shelter in St. Charles. I was grateful for a roof over my head, a warm meal and moving forward with my life. I was working full time and busy getting my business back on track, so when Lazarus House asked for me to go to Renz Addiction Counseling Center for an alcohol and drug assessment I was a little put out—but willing to do what they asked. I was again surprised when Renz Center asked me to come to treatment 3 times per week—I thought it was a bit much. I was also worried about how I would get there as I didn’t have a license or a car. I know the old me would have been overwhelmed and aggravated and given up, but I was sober and clear headed and hopeful and knew I needed to do, what was best for me in the long-run, so I was able to figure out the transportation and started my treatment at Renz Center.
I wasn’t sure what to expect at Renz Center, but I was pleasantly surprised. I quickly saw that I could relate to others—their stories and their experiences. Because of this I felt comfortable to open-up and talk about and share my own story. I also learned a lot about my use and my mental health and how they go hand in hand. I focused on building relapse prevention tools and safe coping skills, so I don’t go back to where I was. I have also been using Alpha Stim, which is a drug free treatment tool that helps reduce anxiety and depression. It helps me feel positive and keeps my head clear, along with the medications I take. I have also started building a good support network around me. I attend SMART Recovery meetings at Renz and have also started attending AA meetings.
I am in a positive place now and my family and friends notice the difference. Letting go of alcohol 14 months ago was the best thing I’ve ever done. My medication, Renz counseling, and Alpha Stim work together to keep my life going in the right direction—the possibilities are endless.